is really clumsy.

I fell down on my butt after slipping on water on the floor while chasing the dog. The dog slipped away without any mishap while I skied on the floor like a hippo on skates.

Well, don't hope. I won't go into the embarrassing details...

As a side note, I think I've pretty much made my decision. Just that I'm only 70 percent sure, the other 30 percent is a bubble full of unsure thoughts and possibilities. *sighs*

Sigh. It is really very disappointing to know that I wasn't successful in getting the dream job at Kimberly-Clark. It was SO near and yet SO far...

I just wished that I've given more to all the interviewers there. I could have given more to them but I guessed during the final interview I was so nervous and sick in my stomach. I think it must be the feeling of knowing that I stand against God knows how many competitors for one position and knowing that I very much wanted the job and that the sentence "What if I fail?" that kept flashing in my brain like an irritating mosquito.

Yes, although I am very disappointed, I have come to terms with it. If it was the job that God wanted me to take, He would have done in all His power to do so. But it wasn't what He had in mind for me, so I won't question further and just accept it. Although sometimes I do imagine and silently wish that the person who was offered the position could not take up or didn't want the position afterall, then they would consider me again. These sort of little wishes.

Well to be really honest, I did want the marketing position very much... it was just that I guess I didn't have any qualifications or experience and I suppose that was a tough one. To think that I was so close to the final round and got knocked out, it was the worst feeling on earth. And to actually spent the evening waiting for the answer was even worst. I hate waiting. I hate the feeling of waiting. It just drives me crazy up the wall.

Still, although I wasn't the successful candidate, this has been a truly eye-opening experience. I met lots of friendly people and had a good time expressing myself and understanding others. And learning how not to screw myself up for future interviews. And to remember to browse through marketing books instead of fiction titles at MPH next time.

And not only that, now I can understand and empathize with those people who lost in competitions, interviews, campaigns and such other platforms where competition against each other is stiff. The feeling of LOSING OUT is so intense that it does burn your heart, eyes and brain. I know, everyone can't be winners and there must be some who will be defeated. But it's the feeling that really scorches you deep inside. I don't quite know how to explain that feeling - you must experience it yourself to know what I'm talking about. ;P

It's incredible how I ended up with with a choice of three different career paths at three different companies. I don't even know how I got into this kind of situation. My dream was to actually work in the marketing line in an FMCG company but unfortunately, the KC dream that I was hanging on went *poof* in a pile of ashes. So now, all I have left is the project management one at CIMB and loss adjuster at C&L. Even worst, I cannot decide... that is because these two are of two different career paths! And I have to give an answer ASAP before the 1st of September. Doom.

So that is the end of my dream job that I so wanted very much *sniffs*. This blog rant is just to release my feelings in words here... otherwise I'll feel so uncomfortable. That aside, I think I really have to start making a decision on the CIMB and C&L one. The sad part is that both jobs are located in KL and it only can mean one thing: TRAFFIC! *shudders*.

So, this is it. I got my final interview with Kimberly-Clark tomorrow at 3pm. And fingers crossed, prayers with the Lord, I hope to land myself, this great big job. Haha, lame rhyming I know.

Anyway, if all goes well, if I get the KC job, I will have three jobs to consider. Here are these three jobs being offered to me:

1. Marketing Associate, Kimberly-Clark (IF)
2. Trainee Loss Adjuster, Cunningham & Lindsey
3. Project Management Executive, CIMB

So, which is which? I'm still deciding between these three.

God help me, I'm in trouble for saying yes to C&L and CIMB.

Folks, it's the middle of August and I know, I haven't been updating on a regular basis. Well, if you count monthly update as regulars...

Anyway, a lot has been going on in the month of August. Aside from the fact that it is our country's national independence day (31st August) in which we have no plans yet as of now, I have been busy juggling my time between part-time work, attending interviews, adapting to a new puppy and deciding between two job offers. I shall get on to each and every one of these in details.

First, yes, I am working part-time at a mobile phone distributor company doing office work (more like the role of an officeboy) like photocopying 200 sheets of paper which was so ridiculous, typing, constructing graphs on Excel and Twittering and MSN-ing. In addition to that, I've also been helping them to create promotional flyers and brochures - well, it's just using Publisher at the moment doing brochures. So this job keeps my time occupied and my brain activated and my bank account fat and happy.

Attending lots of interviews. Like two to three interviews per week. I've been to lots of interviews for various positions (applied to many, hopefully to tiang a few). So far, I've been to interviews at CIMB, Mead Johnson, Kimberly-Clark, Cunningham and Lindsey, APPS (God knows what kind of company was this), Sanofi-Aventis, MCIS Zurich, Nutrimetics, Janine Bangsar (Interior Decorator), Brandcare and goodness knows what. So in the end, I received a call from CIMB last week saying that they would like to offer me a Project Management position starting 1st September but it is a one to two years contract job. The lady who called me is still trying to negotiate with HR to change it to a permanent position. So anyway, I accepted the offer. And before that, there was an interview for the position of Marketing Associate at Kimberly-Clark so I accepted that invitation for the interview.

The interview went well, I had lots of fun talking to the interviewers and I wasn't that nervous like I was in the other interviews. And after that, I received a call from Cunningham and Lindsey, a US loss adjuster firm, calling to offer me the job of a Trainee Loss Adjuster. So now I'm torn between CIMB and CL. But I plan to say yes to both offers first, and then wait for any answer from KC and then if I get into KC, I will ditch CIMB and CL. You see, the offer for CIMB is good because it's a good bank to work in and it's project management which means managing projects which means it's something I like to do. And for the Cunningham and Lindsey one, loss adjuster is a professional career and a good career path to go into. Aside from training, they will send you to Australia to do your associateship test so that you can graduate to be a Chartered Loss Adjuster which I think it is something good. But the downside of it is that you have to travel loads to gritty and grimy places to investigate (think CSI, without dead bodies) and write reports. So I don't know if this is my type of job.

Third and last, I adopted a new mongrel puppy from an animal rescue drive at USJ Summit last Sunday. And she is a three month old crazy and boisterous puppy who is too smart for her own good and too cunning too! So now, I'm bogged down with the responsibilities of caring for her and training and disciplining her. It's tough job, especially training her to poop and pee in the garden instead of at the porch. I'll post up some pictures of her later on when I'm free.

Tomorrow's Monday, another week and I have to work tomorrow. And then at night, we might have a dinner to attend because Shijia and HuiChin are coming to KL from JB and Yi Horng's back from Australia and Bob's probably leaving for USA soon. And for the rest of the week, I will be busy working to earn money to buy work clothes for future career and going to a buffet lunch (been eating a lot actually, last week I had banana leaf rice with family and just yesterday, had scrumptious buffet of Thai laksa and Chinese dishes at home 'cos Abel and Isaac are back from Australia!). Goodbye, weighing scale.

Gotta go now, CSI NY is starting now! Nights, y'all!

Maybe it's because I'm too busy Twittering nowadays to actually sit down and think of a proper topic to write here. Blogging is akin to writing and good writing requires time to plan out your topic. And that is something that I am lacking of nowadays - TIME. Someone once said "We're all each given 24 hours a day, it is just how you manage your time". Or something along the lines. So I admit, I am not the greatest organizer of my time and I procrastinate a lot. But I'm making an effort to reduce my procrastination and it is working.

Aside from that, I have found myself a part time job at my cousin's office. I do all the normal admin work and get a on-the-job training on advertising and meddling with Photoshop and Illustrator. So besides earning an income (no matter how meagre that is, it is just temporarily till I get a permanent job), I am also learning new skills *elated*.

Finding permanent jobs is tough. I went for five interviews in a span of two weeks, two of which are good companies - CIMB and Mead Johnson. I must say the interview process is lengthy and exhausting but it was worth every effort because I get the exposure and experience. Now all I have to do is pray and wait for their calls *fingers crossed*.

Another one of my projects which was supposed to be done specially for Venetia on her birthday (like in end of June) but it got delayed till now which is already end of July. It is a moodboard similar like the one I constructed for Penny and my mom for Mother's Day. I just hope everyone'll appreciate that since it took A LOT of time and effort and blood and sweat and tears to personalize each and every moodboard. For Rachel's farewell, I could not do a moodboard because it was too big for her to take onboard and she had no more space in her luggage (that girl!) so I made a mini scrapbook album for her.

Speaking creativity and graphics and all those artsy-fartsy stuff, Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland fantasy film is out March 2010 (USA release date, not sure about Malaysia)! I've watched the trailer and it is SO AMAZING - it combines the light essence of the classic fairytale with a twist of darkness (so Tim Burton) and Johnny Depp's Mad Hatter character looks crazily demonic. I cannot stop laughing at Helena Bonham Carter's big-headed Red Queen character who looks so imbalance with her head blown up three times the original size. This film is a combination of Lewis Carroll's two classic fairytales - Alice's Adventures in Wonderland and Through the Looking-Glass. Now I have another great thing to look forward to in 2010! Here's the trailer on Youtube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hiPR6kA4_iU

On another note, I went to City Harvest Church's 8th anniversary dinner at Sunway Convention Centre with Venetia and her cell group members and I must say, I had a gala time over there - making new friends, laughing, eating a lot till the seams on my dress was about to rip open, taking a lot of photographs and going for after party at Sanctuary in The Curve. It was FUN! I won't go posting a lot of photographs here (I am going to post up a bunch on Facebook, no point doing the same thing twice) so here are a few pictures of the night for you to enjoy. Internet's very slow, only able to post up one. More to come later on.

For the next two days, my family and I are going to self-quarantine ourselves just in case my brother's contagious flu turns out to be the much dreaded H1N1 flu (touch wood). I hope it's NOT H1N1 *prays*. Till then, I'm off to have a rest (been coughing since yesterday) and see you next time!

The second picture out of 365 pictures.

Gosh, this is really going to take a long time, isn't it?

*sigh*

What a gloomy day. Where did the sunshine disappear to?

Oh well, just about suits my mood anyways.

I'll just make myself a warm mug of green tea and get absorbed in my book. I reckon that'll make me feel better.

As a side note, Michael Jackson ala King of Pop died yesterday of heart attack. Kind of sad to read that he was being ridiculed all his life by the evil media. But his songs are always great...

Goodbye, MJ!

I have a confession to make.

Yes, I know you know that I hate durians - in fact, I still do. I actually hate the odor and the way they get trapped in the house for hours, if not days. But the taste's not all that bad, it has a creamy texture and tastes quite sweet minus the offending odor.

I ate mine with a fork and plate. Of course, I'll never touch it with my hands - again, it's the offending odor of the king of fruits (or should I say, odor).

Well, the after-effect of tasting the flesh? I'm smelling like I've just consumed 300kg of garlic, which in this case is durian.

Gotta go brush with loads of toothpaste and gargle with Listerine.

OK, I admit it. It has been awhile since I discovered about this new fad, Project 365. I just did not have the enthusiasm and energy to actually take a picture a day and post up for 365 days which means, a year.

A whole year of doing nothing but taking aimless pictures and posting them up, one by one, once a day.

Wow.

Anyway. I decided that I'd like to give myself a shot. I mean, all it takes is a little self-discipline and less of a procrastination right? And I will so do it - just to prove to myself that I too, can manage some self-discipline.

So, here's Picture #1 out of 365 pictures. It was actually taken ages ago, but still, that's not really the point. The point is that, I'm making an effort to upload a picture once a day for 365 days.

Hmm, that works out to be... another 364 pictures to post up.

Oh God, I'm in trouble.

Note - Please pardon our narcissistic traits. We are, after all, girls.